ONE OF THE MORE SANE OPINION VIDEOS ABOUT THE IDAHO FOUR MURDERS : TIMOTHY ALLEN CAMPBELL : BRYAN KOHBERGER'S CHANCES OF A FAIR TRIAL : TA REALITY

Having watched dozens of videos, I'm convinced it will be near impossible for Bryan Kohberger to get a fair trial. He has been convicted in the media for sure. Innocent until proven guilty is fundamental to the law in the United States of America but experts including ex FBI agents are talking as if he is guilty, even just calling him Bryan like they can own that over-familiarity. He is a suspect. A suspect.  The ONLY one? 

For a while I was immune to NewsNation broadcasters being negative and opinionated but Banfield is now on my nerves and I no longer think NewsNation is what it claims, news without bias. Nancy Grace, go back into the hole you crawled out of.  You don't need to be outraged for the rest of us.

I'm so glad I did not pursue journalism as my major as I would be ashamed and embarrassed to be in journalism at this point since almost all news is now soft, tabloid, badly researched news.  MURDER HAS BECOME ENTERTAINMENT.

THINK ABOUT THIS.... There are about 35,000 murders in the United States each year but very few are taken up like this one by the media and few get the manpower and funding to be solved that this one has. Name the ones you remember that got this much attention...  O.J.... Name the people you know or know of who have been murdered. (I know three.) I can bet you that if there was more than one or two investigators on the case who gave it a week or two, that would be exceptional.

And while the Idaho Four case has it's ironies, it's true that the Victims have all been turned into Saints, yet it IS likely that overall the party house was the scene of underage drinking and the use of illegal drrugs and a pain in the ass in the neighborhood where serious students also lived. IT WAS NOT SAFE BEHAVIOR TO HAVE PARTIES GOING ON THERE WHEN NOT ONE RENTER WHO LIVED THERE WAS HOSTING. IT IS NOT SAFE BE DRUNK, especially not stumbling drunk - EVER. Were one or all of these students so brilliant that they could excel in all their classes, work part time, and be involved in all that frat and sorority partying and volunteer work?  What was their priority?  If so they were all more brilliant than Brian Kohberger, a serious student.  Rather, I think perhaps the University of Idaho college is really what they call a "party school" where students major in drinking and drugging, and where it is simply well below the usual academic standards, a college where it is easy to pass a class. For these people college is just something you do, an inevitability, not something you strive for, perhaps a rite of passage for a certain class who will spend their lives not really having to work: even sliding through you will end up well employed because someone your parents know will hire you but you can spend most of your time skiing or on the boat.

It also pains me that one expert and media person after another excuses their unsafe behavior as "Typical" of college students, and calls them "Kids." Last I heard age 18 begins adulthood.

I will never get it why ANY SERIOUS STUDENT would even WANT to be in a FRATERNITY OR SORORITY.  I'm no longer in the position to hire, but I would consider that someone was in either to be a NEGATIVE. I would be hiring a drunk or druggie and someone who apparently thinks HAZING is OK. What does hazing TEACH people?  That it is OK to Bully? To be a SNOB?  To be a ROTTEN BOSS who treats underlings like shit? Is that what these stupid frats and sororities teach members? I think of the drunk coworkers and bosses (usually sales people) I had over the years and I can tell you they and their moods and verbal abuse were no fun nor was having to do their paperwork because they just didn't feel like it.

Some of the things that apparently make Bryan guilty that the media is running with are utterly ridiculous, from turning a shaving nick into being beat up in jail, from cleaning a vehicle that was just on a road trip and is visibly filthy with grime in those pull-over videos to be trying to cover evidence, to the whole cell phone ping thing.... which is not the same as GPS. I haven't even been using a cell phone for some time now after having more than one at more than one location that could not find a place to ping.  Having to go out on the street (no privacy) to make and take calls was lousy.  Finding out messages I sent early evening were showing up on other people's phones in the middle of the night was a problem.  I also, when writing and researching do not want the interruption, not even the annoying buzz, and I am not ON CALL!  It is near impossible to even find a place to work outside of one's own home, because the library is full of people on phones and buzzing.

Maybe his phone needed to be recharged. So I would like to know if this insomniac who had trouble sleeping at night had a pattern of turning the phone off, to recharge, or perhaps to try and sleep. (TRY LEAVING YOUR PHONE AT HOME and GOING THROUGH YOUR DAY! We used to do it pre-cell and it is possible.)

Worst, Kohberger's teenage angst expressed years ago on the Internet is being held against him as a man. Including by the obnoxious psyche "expert" Dr. Grandy.  One more wanna be influencer who  should pack up shop and go home. I suspect Grandy has narcissic personality disorder himself, because he has called himself an expert and there is no reason to think so if you listen to his speculations about various people in the news. He should admit that Bryan Kohberger was never his patient.  And if he was his patient, then Grandy would be under the GAG ORDER.

Many of these people who are talking speculations and convicting Bryan Kohberger have advanced educations and are in the professions yet they apparently do not know much about our legal system. How did they manage to be educated and not know a suspect is NOT A CONVICT?

And I'll bet vegans, but also especially Kosher Jews, are cringing as the media tries to make it mentally ill and weird that Kohberger would not want to have his food cooked in pans that had meat in them. I met a number of brilliant grad students - these in the sciences and from other countries who had food weirdness.  One slip of an Asian scientist  - not an ounce of fat - ate only cup sized balls of white rice with a little seaweed mixed in. She had her rice cooker, and this was what she ate for three meals and a snack each day - four cups of white rice with seaweed.  Another each morning had a ritual in which he carefully folded a cereal box and laid it flat, then put his bowls and utensils down. He was unable to eat without performing this set up first. Well, if you read this blog you already know I have some opinions about vegans and vegetarians and organic foodies being in denial of their own human body, their carnivore teeth and intestines, but I guess what I'm saying that I think food weirdness and PhD candidates may go hand in hand.

The owner of the Mad Greek Restaurant has spoken out that NO, Bryan Kohberger DID NOT eat there, yet many media are still reporting that he did. So I decided to do something I rarely ever have and that was make comments.  BUT MOST OF THESE SLANDER SLINGING VIDEOS HAD COMMENTS TURNED OFF.

ALL TIME WASTING VIDEOS IN WHICH THE INFORMATION PROVIDED HAS ALREADY BEEN PROVEN WRONG SHOULD BE TAKEN DOWN.

So, give Timothy Allen Campbell a listen because he may not be all wrong. 

This morning it was considered suspicious that a brilliant grad student would apply for an appropriate internship with the police.  

Even Bullhorn Betty is apparently ignorant of the typical Graduate Student, PhD candidate's way of life.  

So let me tell you.  Grad students very often are hired to be Teaching Assistants or TA's as a way to earn money and as part of their education especially if they may want to stay in academia and teach themselves rather than be a researcher or employed outside academia. I had many of them, in "sections" where a professor, who lectured to a huge crowd, would then divvy out the discussion groups and testing and so on to a number of TA's.  TA's go on strike due to their work load and lousy pay (University of California). Some of them not only TA but also have other part time work as well as massive student loans in order to get through to a PhD so they have to have confidence and gumption. However, depending on the school and major, they may not be expected to get on out of there quickly, they may TA for years. Their (personal) work is under an advisor and falls into the category of independent research.

As TA's, they work under a professor who is responsible for their work. But some of those professors are just so happy not to be teaching themselves. They actually find they must PUBLISH OR PERISH so they are focused on their own research and writing. They are supposed to review the TA's work but I can tell you from personal experience that some of the professors really are in their own world, the so called Ivory Tower, and don't bother. Unless you call them up on it.

If a TA is grading unfairly, if that professor hears that from too many students or a particular student makes their case, he or she will very likely call in the TA and have talk with them about grading. After all, he or she doesn't want students to quit the class or talk to the Dean and cause them trouble. 

Very likely Bryan Kohberger was on such a higher level in his own education and didn't realize it, which is also not uncommon among professors. We would say that the professor was so into his theories that he failed to any longer be able to communicate to beginners. Bryan Kohberger was also a beginning grad student. He had only been in his program a few months. He had years ahead of him. I would hope that if he is not found guilty, he will be able to go back to his PhD, because as I see it, the media has ruined his life.

A good number of grad students do not make it to a Phd. Phd students work with an advisor who guides them and may have strong opinions about how to write their thesis. I've heard of grad students finding their advisor to be sabotaging and jealous, to basically live to make the grad student quit. Also I came to think that most of the grad students I met had parents who had been pushing them to be PhD's from an early age.  Often this meant that they were, when it came to relationships, very immature. Their head was in the books for so many years that they did not have much socialization as compared to someone whose parents were accepting of them as they were. I would say (many of those I met) grew up with parents who were snobs and who WOULD NOT LOVE THEM UNLESS THEY SUCCEEDED. Some of them were practically horse-whipped as children to be professionals, and a normal childhood was taken from them.

The student will present a thesis, usually about five years after they began their program, often attempting some new research, an innovation, a discovery. Bryan Kohbergers on line questionnaire is not creepy but is totally in line with a grad student who is trying to get focus to hone in on what their specialty area will be. 

Sorry but the video I posted is no longer available.

One of a few this man has posted, he is serious, not trying to be funny.   Timothy Allen Campbell has the alternative viewpoint that isn't in the media and he has made some important points. He says the murder victims were irresponsible.

Another thing that is true is that grad students find themselves so busy (trying to teach as well as proceed to do their own work that they) are often overwrought under pressure, THEY OFTEN DO NOT HAVE TIME FOR RELATIONSHIPS but look to marriage after they get their PhD - usually to another grad student - because by that time their peers advise them to "do better" than someone who only earned a bachelor's degree. They are advised professionally to not have relationships with underlings, such as students in their classes, and also to avoid relationships with their peers as grad students in their own programs. So, if you are getting a PhD in literature, forget that department, and consider someone in Anthropology.  (And so it would make sense that Kohberger would go to the campus a ten minute drive away and sit in the student union, perhaps hoping to start up a conversation with a student there.)

At least one of my grad student associates started a sexual affair with her married advisor in the literature department within the first months of her arriving on campus. But then she was a sex addict and might not have used this to get an advantage over him. (She had a list of men she wanted to have sex with which included a couple of my platonic male friends.)   

The saying went IF YOU ARE NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP WHEN YOU START GRAD SCHOOL YOU PROBABLY WON'T HAVE ONE UNTIL YOU'RE OUT OF IT.

Also said to be suspicious but it is not, is that Bryan Kohberger sent a few electronic hellos to one of more of the young women who were murdered.  Really?  This is not harassment.  I've been harassed and I know what that is. It is especially horrible when an intellectual property thief publishes something without your permission.

You can file a complaint with the FBI for internet harassment. And back when I had the comments turned on for this blog, I almost did file a complaint.  Someone from long ago, who had proven to be a ripe asshole in real life, found me and sent me at least a dozen haranguing comments, probably attempting to lure me to see his porn site. I knew he had always been unstable and also had also been unappreciative back in the day.  It was sad to learn that he had not overcome his personality disorder or mental illness. But I figured he was a better candidate for a visit from the San Francisco police and a waste of time and money for the FBI.

These simple hellos via Bryan Kohberger were not "love letters" and since there was reportedly no response it's not like one or all of them sent a message back or blocked the hellos.

(At least two of the murder victims) were posting photos of themselves in sexy outfits and various poses frequently. Tell me that these some of these brilliant women who dyed their hair ice blond and paid to have their teeth perfect and brilliant, (What is called the $100,000 smile) and posted pictures of themselves showing skin, did so because they did NOT want attention! No, they were reaching out for attention, they were attractive, and they wanted to prove to the world constantly that they were popular. If you do NOT want such attention, what you do is keep the social networking to a minimum, such as putting your Facebook on PRIVATE.

Now, I do want whomever murdered the Idaho Four to see Justice but Justice in the United States of America still assumes the person is innocent until convicted.  But what is happening with all the True Crime YouTubers and the very many who have not established themselves but are hoping on the caboose of that train and are causing MOB RULE. 

I reported to Google/YouTube in FEEDBACK that it was really disgusting to be watching videos about these murders and be getting ads to buy knives and military quality equipment for survivalists and chefs. 

C 2023  Christine Trzyna

Slightly edited for clarity  2/10/2023

I want to emphasize that being a TA may not at all be a requirement to earn a Phd.  It would depend on what college, what program, and what their particular goals are.

JOINING GREEK LIFE? YOU MAY NEED A TRUST FUND FOR REHAB and UNDER-REPORTED ON THE IDAHO FOUR MURDERS

GREEK LIFE and "ALCOHOL ADDICTION" by Recovery Village   Interesting stats.

Statistics from other surveys show the direct effects of substance use in Greek organizations. Each year:

• Around 500,000 members suffer unintentional injuries related to substance use 
• 70,000 cases of sexual assault and acquaintance rape
• 1,400 members die from alcohol-related causes
• 600,000 assaults occur
• 50% of members perform poorly on important school assignments *************************************

GREEK LIFE is your straight ticket to being a boozer and druggie.

Let's say you yourself are not an "alcohol addict." But somehow you get into one of the frats or sororities where you are surrounded by people who are....

I chose to link to this site because it seems comprehensive.

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Though I don't usually follow true crime podcasts, I've been following the many articles and videos regarding the "Idaho Four."  By doing so I've been able to eliminate a great number of content creators who are piggy backing on more journalistic offerings.  I'm also avoiding any headline that might suggest the police and many other investigators aren't qualified.

I have yet to find ANY media that would suggest that any of the four murdered college students were alcoholic.  Never the less, while again I don't think anyone deserves to be murdered (or the victim of any crime) I think the investigation WILL have to ask some tough questions about the victim's life styles. 

For instance a person who drinks to the point of stumbling around drunk IS NOT BEING VIGILANT.  

From reviewing hundreds of articles and broadcasts repeated on YouTube,  it does SEEM that Kaylee, was supposed to be part of the winter graduation, but had already moved out of sorority house in the past, had already moved or was moving out of the house in which she was murdered. She had broken up with her long term (five year) boyfriend, you could say her high school or college boyfriend, and was moving to Texas to begin a career. She was back in town to visit and tie up loose ends.  She was doing what many do once graduated, starting a new life in another part of the country, but was there someone who could not bear that thought that he or she would never see her again? 

She might have been sleeping in the same bed as her best friend/sister since the 6th grade Maddy because?  Perhaps her own bed had been moved out.  Perhaps they drunkly fell into bed together.  Perhaps they were both bisexual. 

Her dad is the most openly vocal and angry of the parents.  We do understand the shock that the parents and family members, close friends, and living housemates, must have experienced, and the grief they are experiencing.  Never the less, Kaylee's parents hiring a lawyer to go against the police give me the impression they will sue someone - the police, the landlord, the school.... Someone!  It will not be enough for them that hundreds of professionals and millions of dollars are spent on finding the murderer.  They are acting as if they are special.

THIS IS NOT CSI the television crime solving series. Even CSI  - admits that technologies that do not yet exist are used on the show.  It takes much more than an hour to solve a crime.  DNA evidence is fairly new.

I await the reveal of the autopsy information including the booze in Kaylee's blood...  If she were not drinking for some time at the bar before going to the food truck, I would be less apt to think of this as a "crime of opportunity."  That phrase is used to describe a criminal who preys upon someone because they are a good target, and in that sense there is nothing personal.  I.e. the rapist who follows a drunk woman home.

I also feel speculative about the identity of the killer or killers and their motivation.  The idea that there might have been a get away car. Or that there was more than one murderer. 

I think it's possible that other people did show up at the house and see the crime scene and fled, perhaps out of shock and fear.

As for individual locks on the doors, it's clear to me that the owner of the house clearly intended to rent to students, one after another.  Someone still on the lease and paying rent for months though moved out?  An empty room for the dog to be put into to the killer to hide in?  I'm curious about the rent, and if the rent was only affordable to students with rich parents.  I can imagine the individuals in the house locking their personal doors when out for the day, but not locking them while at home.

Maybe a frat boy went on a rampage.  

It could be that someone heard she would be back in town.  One last chance.

So, was Kaylee nice to everyone?  Too nice?  Or was she a Greek Life snob?  There has been no discussion in the media about that possibility. Her grades were excellent AND she had time to party? She also worked part time at the restaurant.  She does sound like a dynamo. WHY do people join Greek Life?  I think, from reading around this subject, that they intend to have networks for career in place, that they want out of the dorms, and that it's also about being elite or rich enough to afford all that comes with it. But if your purpose in attending college is a career, perhaps the social and career network is the purpose of Greek Life. Oh, and to find a marriage partner who also has potential, comes from money, etc.  As campus get to the point of having thousands of students, the frat or sorority becomes a smaller pool of associates.

But all the reportage that drinking is "just letting off steam" and something that all college students do - they are adults but called "KIDS" shows me just how ignorant the media is about alcohol.

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Addition to original post on 12/23/2022

As I search for new information on this case, "the Idaho Four" I see that the case may not be cold, but after about six weeks of very frequent reportage, including by independent content creators who post on YouTube, reportage with NEWS (ie what's NEW)  is subsiding. It may be that there is a lull, that the speculation has not been fed with anything much since the spectacle of the white car search, which seemed to end when a crashed car fitting the description was discovered in Oregon. The video of a police call to the house when a party was going on but none of the room mates was actually home was revealed.

More proof of behavior that's NOT SAFER BEHAVIOR.  And proof that there wasn't just a hell of a lot of DNA in that house, but also that at least one, if not all housemates, were terribly irresponsible about allowing access to the house.  I'm really sick of the reportage being that they were KIDS, and also that they were TYPICAL COLLEGE STUDENTS.  No they were not.

I'm using the term Safer here akin to when we use the term Safer re Safer sex rather than Safe Sex. Safer behavior may not entirely eliminate danger but will greatly improve your chances of not being exploited or infected so...   

If you're reading this and wonder...

Drinking to the point of being drunk, especially stumbling around drunk, greatly increases your chances of being exploited and targeted.  Usually for sex, but could be for murder.

Giving out the codes to bypass the security of your house or room is dangerous behavior.  You really want people to know what all you have?  To go into your personal areas?

Allowing people to use your house to party when you are not home is ridiculous.  They bring other people in who you may never have met.  This level of "trust" is foolish. Not to be confused with being "social." 

You cannot trust the vetting process of a sorority or fraternity to ensure that the people you surround yourself with are all OK. While you can have by choice a "family of friends" in addition to or as a substitute for the family of birth or adoption, the entire sorority or fraternity is NOT YOUR FAMILY. Further HAZING and other stupid rituals of acceptance that are about power and degrading or humiliating others to prove how much they want to be one of your brothers or sisters is fundamentally beyond immature, it is sick. Do you intend to keep up that attitude and behavior when you graduate and are employed or working your own business?  (In my opinion, colleges should no longer allow these organizations on campus' because colleges supposedly stand for inclusion.)

So let me tell you what those I've met in life who became members of AA and other 12 step type clubs told me years ago, when I asked them to explain. THE TIME YOU SPEND DRUNK OR HIGH is not time in which you experience life, but time you are escaping it.  A person who starts drinking as a lifestyle at 18 who quits at 38 is often a 38 year old who is still thinking and acting like an 18 year old. I do realize there is controversy and confusion about at what point a person is actually alcoholic. For instance, drinking and driving  - when you are impaired - could be defined as one beer. Also, some people are allergic to alcohol or do not physically process it through their system the same.  If you rarely drink it may effect you more profoundly.  Some people define it as, even if it is only one glass of wine, if it is being drunk for an alteration of mood or to escape, then it is your purpose in drinking that defines you.

A while back some friends took me out to lunch and we ate a lot of food and I had one glass of wine.  That wine hit me quickly and did not seem to effect them at all.

Your friends who drink more than you may be your examples or define for you that since you're not keeping up with them, they have the problem, and you don't.

I simply ask you to be self aware and ask yourself honestly how much you are drinking and how often and why. 

If you graduate or leave college after the Greek Life, you may network with others in that life for years, however, if you have been alcoholic as a way of coping with the "stress" of academic stress, before you move to another state to begin your career, or attempt to have an adult, independent life, with a good career too, you very likely want to quit the booze. (Or drugs.) The stress and responsibility of adult life is usually beyond what you experience in college. You won't just have to show up for classes but be on time for work and work for many hours a week.  You may partner, have children to raise right, have family responsibilities that include caring for parents.

Going out to celebrate after completing a semester or quarter or on break is different than parties every day or every weekend. A drink with dinner is different than a case of beer. However, some people can still have that one beer, be drunk, and drive irresponsibly. Some people can drink to the point of throwing up, then ace a test the next day. But, it's more likely that you wont study well with a hang-over. 

Some people point to the Greek Life brother or sister as an example.  Academic excellence as proof that the person does not have a problem with substances.  However, that person may also be blessed with a high-IQ, may have had a pre-college education that put them ahead of their peers, may cheat, or in some way be exceptional.

Take it from someone who has had the alcoholic boss, who, along with others at work, lived around what mood or condition he would come into work with. His lateness and his excuses for being out and gone most afternoons, while his secretary help-mate did massive amounts of trouble-shooting.  

At another job, an alcoholic co-worker of sorts who came in most mornings in a rotten mood, even abusive. One wondered why this person had not been fired for all the misery, but like a college student who still got good grades, he managed to make his quotas.  There were (and still are) lots of people who accommodate.

There is also this aspect of alcoholism, and that is that is one way or another, in adult life it throws responsibility that is yours onto other people who are often unable to say no to taking on more. 

C 2022  Wishing all of you a better tomorrow.  Christine Trzyna

READING SURROUNDED BY NARCISSISTS by THOMAS ERIKSON while DETECTIVES WORK ON THE IDAHO COLLEGE STUDENT MURDERS

Yes, I'm reading this brand new book about Narcissism, and it's full of bad news. They're everywhere, their being raised, and they'll do anything include revenge you and ruin your reputation or your career or your marriage if you don't get the hell out of there, and even then.  If they don't suck your energy from you like vampires, if they don't break your bank, if they don't get away with taking credit for your work, if they don't steal your intellectual property or your image...

They have to get their way, it's all about them. They may even have had a PLAN to get into your life, a long range plan, and a PLAN to get what they want...  No possibility of True Love there because they don't have empathy for you, what they put you through.

Subtitled How To Effectively Recognize, Avoid, and Defend Yourself Against Toxic People (and Not Lose Your Mind.)

This is all so sad.  Because those who are naturally empathic, who care, who are loving and giving of themselves, are punished for it when all that goes to a Narcissist, be that a partner, a boss, or your relatives.

But, you may be wondering, how might this tie in with the murder of four Idaho college students last week, which is quite the murder mystery at this point, one I and thousands of other people are listening in on.

Well, I'll tell you.

You see, I watched the video of two of the women who were murdered a couple hours later, at the food truck, their last stop before going home. They took a ride that wasn't Uber or Lyft, and why not when they were a five minute ride from home? These two appeared to be in "bestie" girlfriend mode after some time spent at a local bar, where perhaps they had not eaten, and - am I imagining this - though it had been a long night - took a picture of themselves together to prove what and to whom?  That they were still having a good time?  

I don't get people who are constantly photographing themselves to share, as if they have to prove they are popular and having a good time all the time.  Like Gabby Petito and Brian Laundrie.... As Thomas Erikson suggests, a new "influencer" is born every five minutes.  What's going to happen to all those photos anyway?  "Well, now, here's the time when we just got food at the food truck?"

No, these people were not trying to be Internet Sensations, but they were, all of the murdered, very much into "Greek Life," into the fraternity and sorority scene,and they lived in a "party house" not far from the "row" of houses on campus. To me, someone who thinks that the whole frat and sorority scene is about alcoholism, drunk sex, and rape, and TO BE AVOIDED, not only is every person at the bar that night a suspect, every person in the frat and sorority is also.  When it comes right down to it, they are people who exclude, who think they are very special, better and more deserving than others. Greek Life should end on all campus'.  (A person can still find such clubs and organizations off campus, but a university that stands for inclusion, should no allow it.) In short, snobs are obnoxious. They don't deserved to be murdered, no one does, but the sense of entitlement and other attitudes that are typified as narcissism, are played out in those places, and only amplified by the constant proofing of privilege.

MORE THAN THAT, if the local detectives are feeling sure this bloodbath happened because one of the women rejected a MAN, it very well might be that one of the four rejected someone of the same sex, a WOMAN, even someone who was transgendering.

And a motive might not be revenge for a break up or revenge because someone was just not feeling it and didn't want to go on a date, THE MOTIVE MIGHT BE THAT THE PERSON WANTED IN ON ALL THAT "POPULARITY," all that "PARTY," all that SOCIAL LIFE, all that bouncing around and smiling for the camera, all those SELFIES. (a sure sign of narcissism, even if author Erikson doesn't mention it). 

They might have been a FRAT/ SORORITY REJECT. Subject to hazing or other rituals of ridicule.

We don't have to imagine an ex; stalkers are not always heterosexual people who are obsessed with another person with sexual and/or romantic fantasies. They are not always people who you were married to, engaged to, having an affair with, dating steadily, or ever dated at all.  

They could be your heterosexually married friend, a wife and mother, who has a lesbian crush on you anyway, who you said No to...

So, while the detectives get ready to hold a press conference and probably know a whole lot more than has been speculated in the media, or released to the media, I hope they're in reality about college campus lifestyles. 

"Greek Life" Is their any proof that the ancient Greeks lived like this? Ancient Greek men may have only seen sex with woman, other than sacred prostitutes in the temples, as for breeding only. They may have been more into what we would consider to be homosexuality.

C 2022  Christine Trzyna

POSITIVE THINKING and THE INABILITY TO EVALUATE - FICTION and NON FICTION by CONTENT CREATORS

I've been posting on self censorship because I can tell you that as soon as you start EDITING for the professor, the TA, the church, the "religious philosophy" of the school or the company you work for, or really anyone, you are out of flow. 

You have lost the ability to declare an alternative position. You may not be a radical. You may simply think otherwise. You may be capable of debate - of stating your opinion in a civilized manner without intent to create upheaval. You will be quickly shut down by someone with a more dominant status or bearing. You will perhaps decide it is no longer worth communicating with an individual because you can tell it will always be combative - if you are honest.  And you may hate your coworkers or your job because you're secretly so uncomfortable with the form or degree of political correctness involved.  But where you gonna go?

Imagine my friend who is volunteering for a nonprofit thrift store with a oversupply of jeans in sizes 7 and below for women. (i.e these are for such small hips one wonders how such a woman could give birth and survive.) She suggested they have a sale for these sizes - skinny people - and was told that would be DISCRIMINATORY!  I'm beginning to wonder if they will be able to continue to hang women's clothing separate from mens (that said, I'm sometimes partial to the unisex look and don't personally care if a man wants to wear women's jeans or visa versa but I can tell you, having tried it, that clothing patterned for the opposite sex rarely fits.) In actuality, it would be discriminatory to only sell those sizes to skinny people but it is not discriminatory to sell them to anyone who wants to buy them.

I've been thinking about these issues which have become increasingly prevalent in recent years.

People are expressing themselves all over the Internet but I wonder if this is because they cannot in their ordinary life? (What to call it? Personal Life (is there such a thing?) Real Life?  I suppose it is real if you are living it. Ordinary - as in NOT in the virtual world of the Internet?)

For those of us who remember life before there was Internet - or cell phones - we remember a certain feeling of connection with other human beings as well as overall, MORE TRUST that people would be honorable in their intentions.

I've TRUSTED a people who proved to be UNTRUSTWORTHY, and I understand.  But you have a choice in life to go around paranoid and to put everyone you meet on trial first, or trust them and let them prove themselves worthy of being hung. (It helps if you believe in karma and think you would not want theirs.)  There are so many con artists out there, for instance people who say they will pay you and then profit from the theft of your intellectual properties, that really we all need lawyers. (Now there's a thought.)

I would say that I meet few people these days who TRUST anything or anyone - not the government - and often, not even their partner they're having sex with. While being open minded to ideas and opinions and information in general, THERE IS A SEVERE LACK IN THE ABILITY TO EVALUATE THE SOURCE.  

Also I see that POSITIVE THINKING - combined with certain forms of religiosity - Christianity - can wipe out your ability to grumble to others as well because they won't hear you. Complain and someone will be negating your pain while telling you to BE GRATEFUL. Positive thinking or talking yourself out of what you're experiencing or feeling is a form of self censorship.

Gratitude is not for the things you earn or deserve. Gratitude is for the things you are given without earning or deserving. (Saying please and thank you can still go a long way.)

Following the Gabby Petito /Brian Laundrie case, I lost hours of my life clicking on YouTube videos with FAKE VOICES providing SPECULATION and THEORIES in search of information with some foundation. I wondered at these people who post these things - is it for hits - and eventual payout by YouTube?  Some of the more sickening stuff was a person who posted cartoonish videos of Brian being eaten by alligators. These people are called CREATORS or CONTENT CREATORS - and I wonder if their work should be labeled as FICTION. (How about it YouTube?)

i.e when it is the news  = journalism - it should be called NONFICTION.

VERY FEW OF THESE PEOPLE WHO WERE SUPPLYING CONTENT had the ability or reason to RESEARCH so they were basically supporting their take on the situation by leaning on others who also were not supplying content based on research.

A BUNCH OF LIARS.

SOME OF THESE PEOPLE WERE INDULGING IN NEGATIVE THINKING.  They indulged in character assassination.  They put Brian and his parents on trial.  They apparently do not endorse Americanism.  (OK, I get it that the legal process has not been trusted since the spectacle of the O.J. Simpson trial.)  They do not believe in the law or the legal process, or an individual's rights.

I know - I'm meandering and this needs to be edited.  But I'm in flow.  I'm letting my thoughts out.

A QUARTER OF COLLEGE STUDENTS ARE SELF CENSORING THEIR OPINIONS TO SUCCEED IN COLLEGE

DAILY MAIL : QUARTER COLLEGE STUDENTS SELF CENSOR DUE TO WOKE CULTURE ON CAMPUS  by Max Aitchison for the Mail on Sunday (Daily Mail UK)

This was going on when I was in college and I felt as if I was being indoctrinated rather than being taught to think for myself or rely on my own experiences,  I can only imagine how horrible it must be for creative writing students there today.  I felt like I was going to a religious school rather than a university with government funding.  The notion that you could only get away with creating characters whose ethnicity, race, religion, sexuality, or values were yours was strong.  The notion that there is no such thing as fiction or imagination really - that cut creativity.

Excerpt:  In the latest evidence of the free speech crisis engulfing campuses across the country, 27 percent of students said they have actively 'hidden' their opinions when they are at odds with those of their peers and tutors.

More than half of those who 'self-censored' did so because of their political views A further 40 percent withheld their opinions on ethical or religious matters for fear of being judged.

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YOU CAN BE DOWNGRADED IF YOU DO NOT AGREE WITH THE PROFESSOR'S OPINION.  I experienced it.

PLANT BASED DIETS THAT KILL? WRITING PARTNERS THAT KILL? ARE YOU A VEGETARIAN or PERHAPS A REVENGETARIAN?

When I was in college working on my Creative Writing, an instructor decided to make writing partners of sorts out of us by first quizzing us on our diets and twinning us with others who ate like we did. A notoriously vegetarian school, "Woke" a good twenty years before the state of California as is, thick with suffocating political correctness as a form of religion, a place where an on site eaterie actually served meat but you could get stared down for openly eating a tuna sandwich, I got stuck with the other meat eater. 

I tried to be cooperative but the person I was stuck with was a jealous and competitive woman (i.e. she played real dirty beginning with threatening me that she was a witch) who wanted to be at the top of the hill and decided she'd say whatever she could to push me down it. When I think back on reasons why I hated the school (there were some reasons I loved it too) this woman and the whole bullshit situation with her including instructors coddling her and accepting her bribes (i.e. her delivery of home made casseroles on their doorsteps) is at the top of the list.

In short, the fact that we both ate meat did not mean we had anything in common, even if we both had meat eaters eye teeth or traditionally human intestinal tracks designed by Our Maker to digest meat. In actuality we were never close to writing "partners". She was only able to make smart ass remarks towards me and my work. And, by the way, I began to see that I was quite possibly unsuitable ethnically to be applauded by my instructors. After years of being passed by in many situations in life due to my ethnicity, such as being the butt of Polish jokes in another classroom, now I was too "White" and considered advantaged to be there, even though I was not one of the many Trust Fund Babies I was surrounded with and going broke. The bitch couldn't stop her whole "I am Mexican and a Single Mother and therefore I Deserve So Much More Than You," mantra, seeking every advantage such as living in the funky, sought after "married student" housing (Where was the husband?) and submitting work written years earlier as new in workshops which was unfair to everyone else there. I was older than her so I tried to be more mature and not respond.

I never bought into the school cafeteria plans preferring to cook for myself and budget. There were so many grocers in the area who carried "health food," begun in the 1960's when hippies settled, that it was easy to purchase vegetarian or vegan alternatives and afford to. So for about 6 weeks, maybe 8, I ate nothing but vegetarian food - lots of Tofu with sauces. This was not the time to do a lot of cooking and these packaged vegetarian meals were easy. I was so busy, possibly I never thought much about food or felt hungry.

One day a friend of mine, younger, a gentleman from Mexico*, who never played that card, and who drank a wicked twelve cups of coffee a day habit, looked at me and said something like, "Your hair!  Your nails!  You're not getting enough proteins." It was uncharacteristically open of him to say such a thing. I immediately confessed that I had been eating vegetarian. I immediately went back to eating some meat.

If I could do it over, I'd probably also be ingesting a suitcase full of the finest vitamins and herbs, and maybe make more of an effort eating in a food combining way. (One vegetarian from Germany there was only eating white pasta with tomato spaghetti sauce and tapioca pudding and no one thought this PHD candidate had an eating disorder.) I would also use the school pool. I was overall fit. A good weight. Lots of walking. But...

Lately, I'm beginning to think that the whole VEGAN MOVEMENT is actually a government conspiracy because there IS NOT ENOUGH FOOD FOR THE PLANET, including the United States, especially if you want to eat a traditional balanced meal. I know about the dubious food pyramids that have us eating way more grains than we should. I also know that millions of American have less than $2000 in assets because that's a requirement if you want to get Government Food Aid (ie.EBT, CalFresh, etc.) Of course the line ups for free food - miles long - preceded the line ups for free vaccines and there were just as many SUV's.

The other day I went into a Vons market and was shocked at the price of meat which, as an example, featured as a deal a pound of ground turkey for $6.99. The last time I bought  a pound of ground turkey I paid about $2.99. I'm aware that food that travels well, such as garlic cloves, are being imported and sold at dollar stores such as 99 Cents Only, meaning that we are importing garlic when heck, Gilroy, California is the Garlic Capital. I'm not sure where else these stores are getting vegetables and salad greens but I'm sure that Mexico is one of those places.

Water shortages are another aspect of the Food issue. If your water bill doesn't do it, your awareness that there is a water shortage will make you consider Depression Era Sink Baths instead of daily showers. It's said that the reason meat is now so expensive is that feeding animals is more expensive because growing food is more expensive because water is so expensive due to water shortages.

WHAT IF YOU ARE BEING MANIPULATED INTO GOING AGAINST YOUR HUMAN BODY with this PLANT BASED DIET trend?  Over the last couple weeks I've tried two newish products catering to the plant based diet folks, fake meat. Maybe fresh out of the package it was eatable but I wasn't fooled that it was meat and it soon started to slime. It was also expensive and processed to turn some form of plant-based sludge into what looked like wieners or slabs of lunch meat, thick and reddish between slabs of brown bread.  I went shopping, with memories of one of my long gone friends saying "Try this, it's the best,"  and putting a Hebrew National hot dog on a white plate with a side of Kraut. I bought both. When I think back on food during my college days, I think humus piled on a bagel.

C 2021 Christine Trzyna

BABY NAME BOOKS ARE INSPIRATIONAL FOR CHARACTERS

I love BABY NAME BOOKS! I like to browse through them - collect them ! That's because I'm inspired by names to develop characters.



Get this: In college I wrote a long story in which I made up a name for a character. It was an unusual name but felt right to me. In fact, it was as if this character, who I came to know well, was telling me what their name was, the way you hear some babies, before birth, whisper their name to their mothers or commuicate it silently as newborns. So I went with this character name. But in critique sessions in my writing workshop the professor and a couple students told me that the name was too unusual, that they got stuck on it while reading. Not good!



I tried, I really did, to find another name for this character. I questioned my motivations for naming this character something unusual. But then again, she was hardly an ordinary person. I was grateful that I could find and replace, using the computer, when the time came to change the name, but simply I never did find another name for the character and the manuscript remains in storage at this time.



Then recently I was looking through a baby name book and there it was - for the first time I had ever seen it in print - this unusual name I had used for the character!

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