SENTIMENTALITY FOR THE PRESENT
A Marxist Concept as Understood by a Capitalist
by Christine Trzyna
Maybe it was because I thought the Professor was a phony with his pretense that he cared about the Grad Students Strike by cancelling a class to show he stood with them and then making us attend a make up class when we already had final papers to write and much else to do to make up for the Strike. That and the way he wanted to sit high up on a rock on campus and have the students sit on the grass around him like he was Jesus teaching the flock, which was a difficult sit for me.
Maybe I hated the class because of the bone-head grad student who wrote that I had "developed new brain cells," as a result of the class on my written evaluation, the grad student who was actually doing the work for the Professor, and who seemed to be stumbling around the Marxist concepts herself. (I protested her brain cell theory as an evaluation to the Dean. Before it was all over they all hated me.)
The class was in Literature because we were being encouraged to deconstruct other people's writing using SOME THEORY... and this one came out of politics and history and economics and feminism - of a sort.
Because the class was so difficult for me to understand naturally I worked extremely hard to understand it. Believe it when I say that some of what I learned sticks with me today, though I don't use it to deconstruct anyone elses writing. I actually think that some of the old Marxist theorists were right one about the future that we are living in now for now we have become the worker as well as the consumer. Am I not buying and selling right now? (I am still waiting for the government to recognize the housework I do as an occupation they can pay me for.)
ONE OF THE CONCEPTS that effected me back then was called SENTIMENTALITY FOR THE PRESENT, which means that even in this moment we are already convinced that THESE ARE THE GOOD OLD DAYS. It doesn't take distance and it doesn't take harkening back or even remembering. Implied is that it can't get better than this, that we are moving every second into a future that is not enviable.
As the world seems to be spinning faster and faster, and the day seems to be over before I got up, and as I'm convinced that I got to Southern California too late and gave up on Central California too soon, and as I see my mistakes but feel they were the only mistakes I could have made, I'm still not given in general to too much sentimentality.
C Christine Trzyna 2013 All Rights Reserved (as always)
PS: HAVE A GREAT MEMORIAL DAY WEEKEND