10/31/17
10/29/17
THINKING OF MUSE DOLORES
Found a few origami paper cranes that Dolores made and gifted me as she did all her friends.
Dolores was so good at yelling POISON! POISON! when I started to tell her about someone who was particularly negative to me.
She reminded me instantly.
She had a special nickname for me.
Blessings to Dolores wherever she is, earth or in heaven.
Dolores was so good at yelling POISON! POISON! when I started to tell her about someone who was particularly negative to me.
She reminded me instantly.
She had a special nickname for me.
Blessings to Dolores wherever she is, earth or in heaven.
10/26/17
MUSES SOMETIMES PROVE TO BE FALSE
First read about this notion from a short story called THE MOON IN IT'S FLIGHT by Erica Jong.
How many times have you been influenced to do something energized by getting to know someone, or having a "thing" for someone (you don't really know them at all)?
Spurned by fantasy, I have:
Done a painting. (which has been lost, I don't know where. I thought I had it as a rolled up canvas but have not seen it in years.)
Moved to a bigger apartment. (Where I had a party and he flirted with another woman in my kitchen!)
Avoided my favorite TA at UCSC. (Long explanation not forthcoming.)
Cried my eyes out for a whole day at work yet. (I claimed allergies.)
How many times have you been influenced to do something energized by getting to know someone, or having a "thing" for someone (you don't really know them at all)?
Spurned by fantasy, I have:
Done a painting. (which has been lost, I don't know where. I thought I had it as a rolled up canvas but have not seen it in years.)
Moved to a bigger apartment. (Where I had a party and he flirted with another woman in my kitchen!)
Avoided my favorite TA at UCSC. (Long explanation not forthcoming.)
Cried my eyes out for a whole day at work yet. (I claimed allergies.)
10/25/17
THERE WILL BE STRUGGLE THERE WILL BE ART - PACIFIC STANDARD TIME
PACIFIC STANDARD TIME FREE ART EXHIBITIONS September 2017 - January 2018
10/24/17
THINKING OF MUSE MARK
Mark didn't mean to but he taught me young that I would never ever have a jealous, manipulative, or controlling partner.
One of the most willful people I've ever met, he is predictably a huge success. He has all the things I don't though some of the things he willfully wanted I never did.
One of the relationships of my life that I suspect has past life connections, there has always been something occult about it.
One of the most willful people I've ever met, he is predictably a huge success. He has all the things I don't though some of the things he willfully wanted I never did.
One of the relationships of my life that I suspect has past life connections, there has always been something occult about it.
10/23/17
10/22/17
THE CHARMING SOCIOPATH MUSE WHO LEFT ME IN A DARK PLACE
My cousin, a minister, has quite recently, after more than half a life with no connection, turned out to be the one person I could talk to about one of the deep shocks of my lifetime, the charming sociopath muse of my early adulthood, who left me in a dark place.
Wicked, is what he called my Charming Sociopath, and for the first time in years I found there was someone I could talk to about the existence of Evil.
The Charming Sociopath had a support network of deceivers, people behind the scenes who must have known his insincerity, or at least suspected it, but were not protective of me. Many of them went to Church.
And so I proceeded to a dark place where loyalty, faithfulness, and devotion, idealism and belief were challenged.
My cousin says, "He was grooming you for more shocks."
Wicked, is what he called my Charming Sociopath, and for the first time in years I found there was someone I could talk to about the existence of Evil.
The Charming Sociopath had a support network of deceivers, people behind the scenes who must have known his insincerity, or at least suspected it, but were not protective of me. Many of them went to Church.
And so I proceeded to a dark place where loyalty, faithfulness, and devotion, idealism and belief were challenged.
My cousin says, "He was grooming you for more shocks."
10/18/17
TINY HOUSES, LIVING IN RV's, and BOX CAR HOUSING
A few months ago I started reading e-books - on a cell phone. I didn't think I could adjust but I did quickly. I find myself reading around TINY HOUSES, LIVING IN RV's, and BOX CAR HOUSING. I also read around these subjects on newish blogs and web sites.
Growing up there was this teeny tiny house that a spinster or widow lived in. No one seemed to see the woman much, and everyone thought it a little peculiar that anyone would want to live in a one bedroom house, maybe a third the size of the houses in the neighborhood. I'll never know the story about this woman. There was another family that lived in a house almost old enough to be a log cabin. People used to laugh and say there was so many of them in this house that they slept standing up. They only had cold running water. They all had beautiful complexions. You felt as if their family had been in the area since pre-Colonial times.
What's happening now is that "millennials" are finding independent living too costly to contemplate in Southern California. If you cannot or will not live with home owner parents, and you really do want to leave home and go through traditional rights of passage, then you probably need to move away, or find some less conventional way to afford it, beginning with a TINY house, tiny enough that it could fit in an RV, or is made of a box car.
With some design background and exposure to architecture, I've learned that constructing these yourself is not for the timid or ignorant, and that you can buy them premanufactured. Like mobil homes, these are not really intended to be carted around the country on wheels like a gypsy caravan, but the living is similar, particularily if you find your legal place to park or place is far from electricity, sewer lines, and other water sources.
Yet I've read stories of couples who have traveled (with laptops and wifi ready to work and earn money all over) and who have even reproduced and managed to prosper in these spaces.
Like everyone else, I have my dream house (having read an old book called Mr. Blandings Builds His Dream House long ago), the kind of house that many people take for granted, but which I have never been close to owning. The dream house lately has taken on some of the characteristics of the Tiny House.
Including - a very large covered over platform for outdoor living.
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Growing up there was this teeny tiny house that a spinster or widow lived in. No one seemed to see the woman much, and everyone thought it a little peculiar that anyone would want to live in a one bedroom house, maybe a third the size of the houses in the neighborhood. I'll never know the story about this woman. There was another family that lived in a house almost old enough to be a log cabin. People used to laugh and say there was so many of them in this house that they slept standing up. They only had cold running water. They all had beautiful complexions. You felt as if their family had been in the area since pre-Colonial times.
What's happening now is that "millennials" are finding independent living too costly to contemplate in Southern California. If you cannot or will not live with home owner parents, and you really do want to leave home and go through traditional rights of passage, then you probably need to move away, or find some less conventional way to afford it, beginning with a TINY house, tiny enough that it could fit in an RV, or is made of a box car.
With some design background and exposure to architecture, I've learned that constructing these yourself is not for the timid or ignorant, and that you can buy them premanufactured. Like mobil homes, these are not really intended to be carted around the country on wheels like a gypsy caravan, but the living is similar, particularily if you find your legal place to park or place is far from electricity, sewer lines, and other water sources.
Yet I've read stories of couples who have traveled (with laptops and wifi ready to work and earn money all over) and who have even reproduced and managed to prosper in these spaces.
Like everyone else, I have my dream house (having read an old book called Mr. Blandings Builds His Dream House long ago), the kind of house that many people take for granted, but which I have never been close to owning. The dream house lately has taken on some of the characteristics of the Tiny House.
Including - a very large covered over platform for outdoor living.
C 2017 All Rights Reserved
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